Florensia, I'm back to you babe!

So, I finally downloaded and played a MMORPG games that I abandoned almost a year ago, which before I enter MMU. Nostalgic for sure. The name? Florensia. Love it so much. Origin? *giggle* No doubt, its from Japan :D Haha



Basically, when its been a long time and quite a while of not playing it, obviously I would forgotten the hotkeys and everything that got to do with the in-games shortcut keys *sigh*

But..! Its not tricky one so quite easy to pick up though. Really enjoyable and fun!
Totally love it EIGHT HOURS playing a new character!=.= WTH??
Feel like chopping myself into pieces right now. And, came to realised I actually already got a character, in other word, my past character which already reach level 30 is SAFE!!!! THANK GOD!!
And, thats the relieveness part :)
I totally forgotten that I shared an ID with my elder brother! *sigh* What a waste of time and fool of me! Seriously! I feel stupid! But, let's look at the bright side.
I got another ID which consist of my other character. Okay, means, if its to happen my elder brother playing...we can play together! Cool~thats nice^^

Anyway, if you never heard of this game, better check it out :D
Its worth it :D This game really different from other MMORPG~

My life begin to mess up =.=

Family? Study? Social? Love?

Urgh..evrything begin to messed up since time is slowly reducing and become limited. I hardly co-op with my life now. I need someone to guide and support me..please! Aiya~very tiring nowdays..

Enduring is hard…

Now days, life is getting more and more difficult. There’s no doubt about it. I really having a hard time in my life. Studies, relationship, family..it’s too much for me to handle everything. I wish I could just turn back the time and went back when I was only 5 years old. No worries, no stressed and no doubt. Only curiosity playing in the head. *sigh*
But, how long can I keep enduring this entire thing..? There’s got to be an end to this nightmare. Help me :’(

Ocean and Water!

I'm going to take a deep rest these weekend! See ya! ^^

Lights Off...

I know this is the first time I post something that doesn't related to my story of the day but, just to let you guys know, this song really reflect my situation or rather my feelings right now.
Don't ask me why, because I'm not gonna speak a word ;P
Listen and experience the lyrics.
It explains everything. Farewell for now :)


Lights Off - Jay Sean

I,m sick and tired of being sick and tired
It,s you that I,m missing
It,s like my brain is wired up
and there,s a glitch in my system
You,re like a drug and now my blood won,t stop itching
I,m in critical condition
someone let me out of this prison
It,s like my mind is playing tricks on me lately
I could of sworn that you are still my baby
I,m on a merry-go-round
going around, driving me crazy

That,s why it feels like
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
won,t somebody, anybody
please just turn the lights on
I won,t take one step
I can,t see what,s coming next
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
can,t see at all (at all, at all, at all)
can,t see at all (no, oh no)
can,t see at all (at all)
cause it,s like somebody just turned all the lights off

I don,t understand how one minute I just had it all
now I can,t reach you cos I,m tied up with this straight jacket on
I can,t breathe (breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe)
I can,t see (see, see, see, see, see, see, see)
It,s like my mind is playing tricks on me lately
I could of sworn that you are still my baby
I,m on a merry-go-round
going around, driving me crazy

[ Lights Off lyrics from
http://www.musiclyricsnow.net/j/jay-sean/lights-off/ ]
That,s why it feels like
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
won,t somebody, anybody
please just turn the lights on
I won,t take one step
I can,t see what,s coming next
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
can,t see at all (at all, at all, at all)
can,t see at all (no, oh no)
can,t see at all (at all)
cause it,s like somebody just turned all the lights off

Used to see my world in color girl
when you left me it,s like my world turned gray
turn my winter into summer girl
why won,t you help me turn night to day
I can,t eat, I can,t sleep, I can,t think at all
honestly it feels like I ain,t living no more
can,t say no more, can,t see no more

Baby that,s why it feels like
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
won,t somebody, anybody
please just turn the lights on
I won,t take one step
I can,t see what,s coming next
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
can,t see at all (at all, at all, at all)
can,t see at all (no, oh no)
can,t see at all (at all)
cause it,s like somebody just turned all the lights off

Trust?

"There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills."

It's true but thats what happening to me now. I wanted to trust but somehow there's something blocking me and makes me doubtful about it. Should I trust..or should I just keep on being doubtful about it..I clueless. Don't ask me ragarding what because I'm not gonna tell about what. Kinda personal to me >.<

Anyway, I don't like this feeling at all and hopefully it fades quickly..Oh God!
Please..make me undoubtful about it...thank you.

Something I Never Knew…

Today, I realise one thing. A truth and misunderstanding that I never thought before. I thought I make the right decision and chose the right path. But today, the truths were spoken and I was like being shot.

I just knew that actually **** was suffering from peer’s pressure. I thought leaving her with her other friends will actually make a good decision but it was a mistake. I’m really sorry dear friend (T^T) She expressed her inner feelings to me today and I was like, really upset with my own self! How could they treat her like this?? Are you messing with me?! OMG! I really feel like scolding them but, doing so will only cause trouble to me and her. (>..<) I felt like crying every moment she told me her feelings. I never knew it before. From outside, I thought they were friendly and true, but somehow, people’s can change. What to do? Sigh… I felt guilty at the same time for not being beside her when she really needs me the most. Urgh!

But, I promise to you, starting from next semester, I’m going to take a good care of you my dear friend! I won’t let you down and let you be in trouble alone again. (>.<) We’ll be like we used to be in first semester! This is a promise I give you!