☃✽✿❤あいーちゃんの夢❤✽✿☃

Florensia, I'm back to you babe!

2010-05-09T02:31:00.005+08:00

So, I finally downloaded and played a MMORPG games that I abandoned almost a year ago, which before I enter MMU. Nostalgic for sure. The name? Florensia. Love it so much. Origin? *giggle* No doubt, its from Japan :D Haha

Basically, when its been a long time and quite a while of not playing it, obviously I would forgotten the hotkeys and everything that got to do with the in-games shortcut keys *sigh*

But..! Its not tricky one so quite easy to pick up though. Really enjoyable and fun!
Totally love it EIGHT HOURS playing a new character!=.= WTH??
Feel like chopping myself into pieces right now. And, came to realised I actually already got a character, in other word, my past character which already reach level 30 is SAFE!!!! THANK GOD!!
And, thats the relieveness part :)
I totally forgotten that I shared an ID with my elder brother! *sigh* What a waste of time and fool of me! Seriously! I feel stupid! But, let's look at the bright side.
I got another ID which consist of my other character. Okay, means, if its to happen my elder brother playing...we can play together! Cool~thats nice^^

Anyway, if you never heard of this game, better check it out :D
Its worth it :D This game really different from other MMORPG~

My life begin to mess up =.=

2010-04-20T15:03:00.001+08:00

Family? Study? Social? Love?

Urgh..evrything begin to messed up since time is slowly reducing and become limited. I hardly co-op with my life now. I need someone to guide and support me..please! Aiya~very tiring nowdays..

Enduring is hard…

2010-04-12T00:41:00.000+08:00

Now days, life is getting more and more difficult. There’s no doubt about it. I really having a hard time in my life. Studies, relationship, family..it’s too much for me to handle everything. I wish I could just turn back the time and went back when I was only 5 years old. No worries, no stressed and no doubt. Only curiosity playing in the head. *sigh*
But, how long can I keep enduring this entire thing..? There’s got to be an end to this nightmare. Help me :’(

Ocean and Water!

2010-04-10T10:13:00.003+08:00

I'm going to take a deep rest these weekend! See ya! ^^

Lights Off...

2010-04-09T03:03:00.003+08:00

I know this is the first time I post something that doesn't related to my story of the day but, just to let you guys know, this song really reflect my situation or rather my feelings right now.
Don't ask me why, because I'm not gonna speak a word ;P
Listen and experience the lyrics.
It explains everything. Farewell for now :)

Lights Off - Jay Sean

I,m sick and tired of being sick and tired
It,s you that I,m missing
It,s like my brain is wired up
and there,s a glitch in my system
You,re like a drug and now my blood won,t stop itching
I,m in critical condition
someone let me out of this prison
It,s like my mind is playing tricks on me lately
I could of sworn that you are still my baby
I,m on a merry-go-round
going around, driving me crazy

That,s why it feels like
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
won,t somebody, anybody
please just turn the lights on
I won,t take one step
I can,t see what,s coming next
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
can,t see at all (at all, at all, at all)
can,t see at all (no, oh no)
can,t see at all (at all)
cause it,s like somebody just turned all the lights off

I don,t understand how one minute I just had it all
now I can,t reach you cos I,m tied up with this straight jacket on
I can,t breathe (breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe)
I can,t see (see, see, see, see, see, see, see)
It,s like my mind is playing tricks on me lately
I could of sworn that you are still my baby
I,m on a merry-go-round
going around, driving me crazy

[ Lights Off lyrics from
http://www.musiclyricsnow.net/j/jay-sean/lights-off/ ]
That,s why it feels like
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
won,t somebody, anybody
please just turn the lights on
I won,t take one step
I can,t see what,s coming next
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
can,t see at all (at all, at all, at all)
can,t see at all (no, oh no)
can,t see at all (at all)
cause it,s like somebody just turned all the lights off

Used to see my world in color girl
when you left me it,s like my world turned gray
turn my winter into summer girl
why won,t you help me turn night to day
I can,t eat, I can,t sleep, I can,t think at all
honestly it feels like I ain,t living no more
can,t say no more, can,t see no more

Baby that,s why it feels like
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
won,t somebody, anybody
please just turn the lights on
I won,t take one step
I can,t see what,s coming next
losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
can,t see at all (at all, at all, at all)
can,t see at all (no, oh no)
can,t see at all (at all)
cause it,s like somebody just turned all the lights off

Trust?

2010-04-02T12:17:00.003+08:00

"There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills."

It's true but thats what happening to me now. I wanted to trust but somehow there's something blocking me and makes me doubtful about it. Should I trust..or should I just keep on being doubtful about it..I clueless. Don't ask me ragarding what because I'm not gonna tell about what. Kinda personal to me >.<

Anyway, I don't like this feeling at all and hopefully it fades quickly..Oh God!
Please..make me undoubtful about it...thank you.

Something I Never Knew…

2010-03-31T12:43:00.004+08:00

Today, I realise one thing. A truth and misunderstanding that I never thought before. I thought I make the right decision and chose the right path. But today, the truths were spoken and I was like being shot.

I just knew that actually **** was suffering from peer’s pressure. I thought leaving her with her other friends will actually make a good decision but it was a mistake. I’m really sorry dear friend (T^T) She expressed her inner feelings to me today and I was like, really upset with my own self! How could they treat her like this?? Are you messing with me?! OMG! I really feel like scolding them but, doing so will only cause trouble to me and her. (>..<) I felt like crying every moment she told me her feelings. I never knew it before. From outside, I thought they were friendly and true, but somehow, people’s can change. What to do? Sigh… I felt guilty at the same time for not being beside her when she really needs me the most. Urgh!

But, I promise to you, starting from next semester, I’m going to take a good care of you my dear friend! I won’t let you down and let you be in trouble alone again. (>.<) We’ll be like we used to be in first semester! This is a promise I give you!

17.03.2010 – SWAY

2010-03-18T01:18:00.001+08:00

It’s been a while since I last update my blogs. It’s been 3 months I guess =.= Hahas..I’m really useless.

And now, I telling a sad story of me. What a joke man! >..<
17^th March 2010..the worst day ever. My days begin with stumbling upon rocks for many times and almost fall some more. Really a bad beginning for a day. Actually, I don’t even feel like typing since I’m pretty upset. Seriously, I’m WEAK. Okay?? I admit it. =.=
My eye is swollen because of an accident and it’s a bye bye for a day. Urgh!!

A Night to Remember…FOREVER.

2009-12-27T23:16:00.003+08:00

24th December 2009, just 13-hours left before my birthday. I woke up at 11am something on that day. Quiet late I can say. I really had no idea of what’s going to happen on that day. I received a call from my good friend which awakes me on that day. He said that today we’re gonna go out to town. I’m very happy. This was the beginning of it—after all. I woke up and rush myself to bath and prepare everything I should. I’ve been told to wear the best dress for the day, so, I wear the cutest and prettiest I can be on that day. This is, a short sleeves jacket, a light yellow dress, a black jeans and a pair of pure white sandals. I made my hair tied like a bun, a loose bun. The clock pointed at 12pm sharp. I prepared myself on time (that’s a good thing to happened ^.^) And now, my job is to wait for a call from my dear friend. *Rings. This means, it’s time to go down. I left a message to my housemate say I’m leaving with friends and off I go.

There, at my entrance, Jacky’s waiting. At first I thought only Jacky, Sharan and me, myself gonna celebrate this birthday but surprisingly. There’s J’s friend came along! What a surprise. Why? Heh, because I thought Jacky the one drove the car to my apartment. When I want to enter the car…ops! There’s another two guys sitting in front. Jacky’s friend. Their name is Ng and Ernest. A really nice guy =)

Okay, then Sharan—arrives in a minutes. Okay, it seems like I’m the princess for the day. Ha-ha, why? Since there are four great guys accompanying me on that day to have fun! Awesome! xD Okay, now, the great and most awesome journey of my day begins!
First, we head to Mini Malaysia Park, supposedly go there to take photos, since Ernest is doing some homework, I guess. But we didn’t enter since everyone doesn’t seem interested ongoing. Ha-ha (Need to spend ten bucks to enter =P) So, we headed to Bee’s Park instead. Oh, enter for free~ hehe, I guess this one is okay^^ We all enter there and woo its bee time~hoho. All glasses have real fermented bees there. Cool but pitiful at the same time as well. Haihz~ it’s really a great experience though entering the Bee’s Park. Plus, one of the manager thought that I’m a Chinese as well. I guess it’s okay; I’m used to it though. So, its okay as long I just nod what they say =P (Actually we’re avoiding the police check =.= ) Somehow, we just couldn’t avoid it. Ernest got to go down and talk with the police officer thought. It’s kinda a complicated story. So those who involved would know the story and the rest, was memory xD

Next, our destination is the Melaka’s Zoo! Woohoo~never thought gonna enter zoo again xD Nice, we all had a really great time there! Just that walking for 9.4km isn’t really a pleasant thing thought. Ha-ha, I felt like collapsing. It’s very tiring of course. Since they all are guys, their energy might be more than mine, so, I don’t think they tired as I am. It’s already 3.15.p.m. by the time we went out from the zoo. So, it’s time to eat and buy cakes! Its time to go to Mahkota Parade! WOohoo~

Reach there, I lead the way to Sushi King—my 3rd home. *giggle* (I’m a sushi princess okay xD) We all sat and ate what we want, Jacky, Ng and Ernest really can eat. Ha-ha. They really eat a LOT. Ha-ha, sorry no ill-intention though =P It’s a fact. *chuckle* Then, we went to buy a cake, a piece of cake. For me; it’s a New York Cheese. Nice and match my clothes for the day. Its Sharan treat this time. (Thanks a lot guys, I love you all ♥)

Then we all take a walk around Melaka Historic area, a lot of place and I felt like my leg wants to break off. Ha-ha. *sweat* LOL. xD Plus, its photoshoot time. We all took photos on that day. Ernest be the photographer. Heh, thanks Ernest.

We headed back to Dataran Pahlawan to buy something though.
It’s almost late night, so it’s time to go to the venue—Carrieanne’s House. Its Christmas Night as well, so it’s going to be real hectic and busy obviously (>.<) we park outside of the Portuguese settlement and walked inside to Carrie’s house. There I met Carrie’s family and greets all them. A very friendly and loving friendly she has. Jacky, Ng, Ernest, Sharan and I have a sit for a while. We all had a simple talk with her family members and leave for the jetty. A lots of people playing fireworks there…yea, one more thing, my birthday was really special u know. Why? Because a lot of fireworks being played on that day! I get to watch fireworks on my birthday! What other words can I use to describe how I felt! We have a chat there for a while enjoying the breeze. Then, unexpectedly, my friend was also there as well! What a surprise! A friend which I longing to see, appeared in front of my very own eyes. Thank God. We had a short talk and I really happy to be able to see him on my birthday night, really, really grateful about it. I miss him. Ha-ha. Okay, back to story, it’s almost midnight. So, it’s time to go back to Carrie’s house. There, while waiting for midnight to struck, we played and enjoy ourselves. Oh yea, I forgot to mention another guy, mmm, who yea his name…kinda forgotten already. (Sorry ya!) >..<>.<

Around 1-2.a.m. we all went to jetty again. Take a view for the second time and breeze while drinking soda. Cool. Nice. Cosy. Around 3.a.m. in the morning, we all head back to Carrie’s house and thank her for everything. I really had a great moment there. It’s late now and it’s time to go back.

Ernest drove us all back to Bear’s Hill. But this time, there are six of us, and like before I’m the princess and there’s five knight accompanying me this time. (Aww…so sweet! ;D) Around a couple of minutes later, they arrived at my house apartment gate and I come down from the carriage. And so, the princess went to sleep like it was a dream =)

Thanks to Jacky, Sharan, Ng, Ernest and another guy who I forgotten his name(Sorry!) for making me having the best birthday I ever experienced in my whole life. This is the best sweet eighteen I’ve ever had. Thanks you a thousand bow.

Birthday Girl,

Ai Ai

Shop Till You Drop!

2009-12-23T20:18:00.007+08:00

Finally! Exam's over and I'm free from all this reading stuff thingy~(^.^) What a relieve!
Now, its time to have lots of F.U.N and L.O.V.E ~ (^o^) Okay, now I'm totally tired and exhausted *sigh* after spending HALF day and HALF thousand at Parkson! (>.<) Let me begin with a morning moment, woke up pretty late..again..today.

Then, go to exam for the last paper today xD (Yeah!) Principle of Marketing! Thank God a reading subject! Kinda un-stressed~andn answer with confident as well(thumbs up for me(^^)) Next, go mamak with friends~and got shoot by them (>.<'') Not a real shoot, but by words. Ahahaha. Don't care them, let they say what they want, I don't give a rose! Haha xD While sitting with them, I'm counting every second of going to Parkson---S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G!!

(Image from spellbound-bluesky on Photobucket)

Around 11pm++, we all seperated and I walk with anticipation towards the bus stop happily. Waited for the bus for 20-30mins but its worth it^^ Around 12pm sharp, reach Parkson! What to do? Still ask?? Haha! SHOP TILL I DROP! xD Start my journey from now~my mission= Find dress! I walked, wander and skipped through the time. OMG! I feel like buying all those clothes! Plus, I'm having a lots of pleasure as well since you can count how many people there (means so little people at Parkson at this moment) Then, I stopped at one clothing brand that satisfy me enough^^ Their clothes design really sweet and feminine! And, that's what I need! xD

Haha..since there we're less people, I "like" having my own personal assistance---promoter. She keep following me where ever I go and helped me take my things. Nice xD I spent around four hours at the clothing brands~and spent hundreds at it too...*sigh* =.= Then go to another brands and find few other clothes as well---but still, feminine dress! So basically, I bought around ONE PAIR OF JEANS, TWO PAIRS OF CARDIGAN, THREE PAIR OF DRESSES~COOL! (Oh yea, the price....*sigh* don't know whether to tell or not coz' I scared you guys got heart-attack later..why? Cause the amount is shocking! =.=)

Around 6pm, I stopped shopping and go to Jusco to have my dinner--alone obviously =.= I eat Claypot Asam Pedas and Soya Milk =) Nice~plus, got two lengzai sit infront of me~OMG! xD

Finish my dinner, I went to play Taiko Drum since I still left two coins in my purse. Reach Taiko Drum station, a few kids we're playing there. Then after they finish playing, I play--obviously..again xD Play one of my favourite song, and unsurprisingly, got PERFECT. Kinda nervous a bit coz' 15 people are watching me playing! *faint* >.< (Didn't realise at first..at the end of song only I realise!) Next song, i play, felt the nervousness overtaking me. *sigh* Since so many people wathing you, sure you, yourself can't play perfectly nice right? O.< already =".=">laoshi playing here(^.^') )

Waited for the bus for 35 minutes. Really headache because I'm starting to feeling totally tired >.<

Last but not least, reach home at around 8pm. Straight away go bath and clean myself. And now, here I am writing this journey in this blog to share with my beloved friends =)

Okay, I got to go now~need to rejuvenate my body and mind with some breeze~^^

Later!

Tired but happy,

Ai Ai <3

XOXO

Exams...Exams...=.=

2009-12-20T14:35:00.001+08:00

Exams week~stressed week..

A Vow to Myself...

2009-12-10T02:46:00.003+08:00

Time pass by very quickly…and without realising it, I slowly destroying my future. Why? My study and life went haywire nowadays and I really felt regret about it… I disappointed my very own lecturer who put his effort in teaching us. Seeing my own friends being praised, I felt the pain of not being able to achieved good results like them. I’m very upset of my own self. I’m wasting my own chances little by little. Final examination is the only time when I can really prove myself that I’m not useless!

Indeed, a lot of things in my mind and it’s not reducing at all but only gaining more and more. I need to change myself. If I never change myself, how I want to overcome my future? Love, financial, life, study, friends...everything is complicated. Sometimes, I feel like forgetting everything at once.

Thus, I want to make a promise to myself. From now on, I’m going to concentrate on my study and less socializing. I want to be successful and the only person who can help me trough this goal is me, myself. I don’t want to regret everything after my study. What for? I can never turn back the time. Once it passes, it can never turn back. Therefore, I need to appreciate what I have now and don’t repeat the mistake I done before. I got a strong will; I should have a strong mind as well. Don’t let present get control of me. I want to improve myself and I have to!
I want to focuses on my life and wake up from my dream. No more playing Ai-chan! Wake up! It’s time to grow up and be adults! Although its gonna be time consuming but, I know I can do this! Several things that I’m gonna do is that:

I - I will be less playing socializing network Facebook from tomorrow onwards until my final exam ends…!

II - Start being serious in my study life!

II – Don’t dilly dally my own task and assignment anymore!

IV – Never let down my lecturers and my family…ever again!

V – Love will not be an obstacle for me to improve myself!

VI - Must score well in my final examination this time!!

From today onwards, I shall complete these promise that I made to myself. It may be take a time but I believe I can change myself and I will prove it too you! I’ll make u never look down on me again! I promise and I won’t break my promise easily because I'm a person who hold to her promises strongly! I will!

Day by Day...Can't You See..?

2009-11-30T23:26:00.003+08:00

Kisses kept are wasted;
Love is to be tasted.
There are some you love, I know;
Be not loathe to tell them so.
Lips go dry and eyes grow wet
Waiting to be warmly met.
Keep them not in waiting yet;
Kisses kept are wasted.
~Edmund Vance Cooke

A lot of things happened recently and I just felt in doubt whether to keep it or fade it..within my memories..but one thing I know..it would be one of those things that I might never be able to forget..at all.. Getting burdened day by day and wish that someone could just pull me out from this misery..please..anyone..I've had enough of suffer and pains before. I know I'm a stubborn girl. Then, why didn't you save me? If only you know what I've been through all these time..Someone..please..save..me....

What a Fun Day! xD

2009-11-09T21:33:00.003+08:00

Today I was very lazy to wake up as I thought its gonna be just boring day..I went to campus quite late today (^^') luckily the lecture was nice! xD But, I still get 'attack' by the lecture though..ha..ha..ha..Then, I spend the day going class(of course!) and going to my sister's house(Ixora)~^^ so happy^^ we talked, watched drama together, as well as studying. Very fun. It's been a while since I spent some time with my beloved sister (^o^) Today! I saw my friend wearing pair clothes! So cooL! xD Red, Pink, White and Purple!
Awesome--unfortunately I'm not one of them (^^') haha..but still I LUV THEM! xD

Then, after class~ we; I, myself, anata, Jacky, Sharan all went to Jusco since I requested to eat Fries! Hehe..sorry guys~! xP We went to play Taiko Drums and Dance Dance Revolution + Hand Hockey !
OMG! I can't believed I'd scored PERFECT SCORE at one of the song!! (unfortunately I didn't took a photo just now >.<) What a pity! (T^T) But, I still got few witness though and that's already makes me happy enough! A proof! Mwahahahaha! xD

　　　　　　　　　　　Images of the Taiko Drum courtesy from IJN.com

9.30 p.m. We went back home after playing~hehe~^^ Pity to Sharan as he need to endure my high-pitched voice..(sorry Sharan..)$ and sorry to my anata and Jacky's 'baby'(*bread) as well hahahaha~(^o^)

Okay~since that's all for the today!
Good night!
また、あした！＾＾

Ai Ai

Something weird to share about..

2009-11-09T11:56:00.001+08:00

Hi guys, today I want to share something that I can classify as weird (^^'') If you're wondering why? I'll let you see a picture I took last time..it's really really weird (for me) I don't know if you think it is normal but I don't think its normal though =.=

Do you see that? A weird cloud..it's like a 3D cloud as it more 'real'~

I took this picture on 26/09/2009 and I didn't manage to share as I don't have a blog yet ( but now I do!) xD I'll share some of the photos at my Facebook profile as well^^ (you guys can have take a peep at it~)

Say, it would be really nice if you guys could drop a comment regarding this weird little cloud floating like marshmallow up there^^ *giggle*

Later!

A surprised journey from Melaka-P.Dickson-Melaka xD

2009-11-08T12:26:00.005+08:00

OMG..this gonna be quite a long story I guess..
Haha..let me begin with a cup of tea ;D
Okay, I was chatting with my elder brother at FB(you guys know, so hopefully don't ask =P) Then, he ask me, whether I wanted to join him go to Port Dickson because one of his friend's friend is getting married? Ahaha..I guess so~ Since I don't have a ny plan for this weekend, I guess why not I give it a shot? This thing happen on Thursday for you're information =)

Friday, I received a call from my brother telling me to get ready by 5.45pm. Okay, I'll be..unexpectedly, who knows he came 45mins later!! x( Deep in my heart, I feel like chopping he to pieces!! Lolx..in heart only =P

Jump in the car, he told me the whole story. Oh great, now I know (~.~')
We're actually going to PD(Port Dickson) to surprise my family whose having works there. Great! But, kinda upset a bit since I'm also got surprised..(=.=)
The trip took us around 40mins from Melaka-PD ( 150-170km per hour..I felt my life on the string of thread *gulp* (O.O)

Surprised! I told my parents when I saw them~^^ The one felt very happy should be my mom of course =)
We went eat that night as a whole family again xD
Oh yeah, did I mention the room we're staying was SO AWESOME!!
Mini bungalow! So sweet! xD

Actually, I've went to the place 10 years ago, and now, I came back again =D
What a memory~! Everything looks the same exact for the fence of the brigde?(haha..its shorter than before*obviously since I grow taller you stewpeed xP)
I got my own room at there and its totally cool! Master bedroom!(mom & dad, I LOOOVVEE YOUUU!!) We spend the night chatting-eating-sleeping~

The next morning, ha ha ha... I woke up quite late..as usual =P
It's beach's sound tat calls me actually~haha~so nice!
The air and breeze was totally refreshing! xD
I ate nuggets-nasi lemak-sandwich for breakfast(that's a LOT xD)

However, I didn't even manage to STEP on the beach's SAND since my elder brother makes trouble--going back! (T^T)
He need to settle his things at his home(Melaka) by 11.30 p.m. so we need to rushed back home (T^T)
Haihz~can't say anything though..my own fault fot getting up late.

11.45 a.m. we reach Melaka( 150-170km per hour..I felt my life on the string of thread..AGAIN! *gulp* (O.O). And I reach home. Thx bro for bringing me there~I had a sweet time!(kinda bitter a bit since I lost a NEW pair of SANDALS) and left my PRECIOUS NECKLACE with my MOMMY)

This is the summary I made through my 2 days 1 night journey xD

See ya!Muahx~!

Ai Ai =D

~First Post~

2009-10-19T18:33:00.002+08:00

HellO!
This is my first post!
Practically, it won't have many things for sure..
My blog is still under construction though ;D
Will try my best to make it an exciting place to be~
More to come~^^
See ya~